Three Pennies

I have three pennies

They represent today

When I saw you for

The first time in a while

Over chocolate chips and 

Crumpled fives

And I think you know I’ve

Changed

Have we both changed?

Nothing has been simple

About life

At any point really but

Especially these days

You were leaning in

You looked so happy

Are you happy?

All I wanted was that

Were you remembering the past?

I’ve come to terms with younger me

I didn’t tell things like they are

Didn’t know much, really

I feel like I owe us 

The two of us

An apology

I wanted the same thing then

And I was lost and lonely

What would have been different?

Would it be odd if I was

Still curious about you

I have a lot more answers since

The last time I asked

Permission to get to know you?

I can 

Promise free coffee now 

Just three free drinks a day and

No it’s not anything special

Drinks and words and the breeze

If you’re curious too

Or just need company

I have three pennies

While you talked I

Scooped up my change

I hope you’re not lonely

I know you aren’t lost but

You seemed like it when

I knew you

And in my boots and rings

Dark clothes and power I 

Must be a sight these days

We wished each other well as

I made to leave

I wonder if I should have looked back

Three pennies clinking in my pocket